living in the light of Christ

I have no idea what is going on in my life right now, and I am okay with that. Which is very weird for me. I like to be in control of everything in my life. I worry so much about life and what is right and what is wrong. Should I do this or should I do that. Should I go here or should I go there. I think so much about what I should do so much that I end up doing nothing. I am learning to just do it! Just let go of the past, let go of your fears and insecurities and be who you know you are. I live with a bunch of people that I care about very much, however they do not believe the same things I do, nor do we have the same convictions. However, despite the circumstances I have been placed in, my convictions stand the same. I had this fear that if I did this or did that or hung out with these types of people, I would forget where I came from and forget who the glory and honor belongs to. I was pleasantly surprised to see how much the Holy Spirit was evident in my life. For example, I went to a superbowl party at a bar and people were apologizing when they cursed around me and I had said nothing of my belief in God. It made me realize how much of a light one follower of Christ can be. Actions really are more powerful than words. Please, do not take this as me being self-righteous, I make mistakes daily and in no way am I perfect. I am a sinner, becoming sanctified in Christ.

I hope you are encouraged by this. I think so many times people think they sin and God is disappointed in us and doesn't want to talk to us. That is untrue. We do something wrong and he disciplines us in a way that is beneficial for our growth and His glory. He accepts us just as we are and knows we will fall. He is there to keep it from happening more often than not. Our struggle with the flesh is a daily battle and He knows that.

I don't know what I am saying anymore. this is the end.

living wide awake.
Nikki