Alot has happened this past month or so. I got a knew roommate and made a few friends with the new peeps at the school. I decided to stay at the school for another few months and I met Marion Cotillard. So all in all, I can't really complain. The job search is still a struggle, but I am working on it, but not hard enough obviously. I think I am fearful of not accomplishing my goal of acting if I get a "day job". I have sent out headshots to a few agencies and casting directors for different tv/film roles and have heard nothing back. Which I expected. I got more headshots and am going to be sending more out soon. It is difficult and discouraging, but its worth it to me at the end of the day. I love acting, I can't quit. That's just not an option. I am so thankful for my family who have been so supportive in helping me. I wouldn't be here in LA if it weren't for them. I think, meeting Marion Cotillard after the night of Golden Globes gave me so much excitement and inspiration to just do it. To just put myself out there and do whatever it takes. It was a boost of confidence that I needed to get past a few fears. I truely believe becoming a successful working actor is all about opportunity and sacrifice. In the beginning actors have to make alot of sacrifices to get the oppurtunities they need. Which, I think is what alot of success is. I don't think I have ever met anyone who gained success without sacrifice. As people we don't know what we are getting until we have never had it.
I did a video audition for a role on abc family and I really want it! I know I could do it and I would really appreciate your prayers. Everything happens for a reason and I know God has my life plan in mind.
Anyway...
living wide awake,
Nikki
