Today, I was told by a very close friend that lives in Sacramento, CA that I could stay with her until I got a job and a place to stay in LA. I was thrilled, but when she told me that, I also felt fear. Fear of the lack of security I have here living at home, fear of doing the wrong thing, not finding a job, leaving my family and the little girl I nanny for that I have come to love and care for dearly.
As this is sinking in I'm having second thoughts on whether or not this is the right thing to do. The God thing to do. A part of me feels if I don't leave now, I'll never leave. A big part of me is thinking ahead to the fact that my Dad is not going to be able to financially support me forever and I want to be financially independent. I don't want to have to rely on my daddy for money anymore. I am 22 almost 23 years old. I should be preparing to go on my own and I feel this move would not help me, but push me out the door.
Courage is not the absence of fear, but rather the judgement that something else is more important than fear. ~Ambrose Redmoon
Courage is being afraid but going on anyhow. ~Dan Rather
The mind of man plans his way but the Lord directs his steps. Proverbs 16:9
living wide awake,
Nikki
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